i loves me some John :)
love making new friends C: music is my lyfe :P
I hate myself when i eat. I tear myself apart mentally when i do. I see the food in front of me and just think of what i see in the mirror. I need to take bites to not worry my friends but When i take those bites, with every chew i internally scream “worthless” “fat” “unattractive” “weight” then im depressed the rest of the day. On weekends and brakes i rarely eat and ive gotten so used to it that when i eat a little i get utterly nauseous. Diet pills just make me feel drained and nauseous. I want hipbones and ribs. I want to be able to look down and not see my stomach over my boobs. I want skinny thighs, collarbones, flat abs, and a tiny waist.